I, FONG HAN KEN !!!
IS A
$#%#@^*&^
NUDGER !!!!!!!!

Kuala Selangor..

This was hell of a trip.. but it's been awhile since we've done all this kinda thing.. so might as well post it up to refresh our memories! haha..

i love this picture man.. it's not the car though(king's car)
it's the amazing scenery!


Group Picture!

from top left : wen ken, ME, bryan tan, shaun
from bottom left : nian king, benjamin, andrew yap

i wonder when we'll ever do this again.. it was fun i remembered well enough..

Sweet old memories..

At Lee Hooi' party :

My brother and i.

dont we look a like? the Hans.. lol.

he and his stories..

hMm.. many stories connect to this particular place..
haha.. sweet memories they were, but it's over already.. =)

Trip to Australia (Dec 2004)

The trip to the Gold Mine~!

i love pigs~~!!

that fella is making real gold! how i wish it was mine, that thing was worth about 30k aussie dollar..

dinner time~~! hehe.. and that new girl you see there.. that's my brother's gf!

from left : dad, me, mum, bro and sis
at the back : our rented CAR! haha.. 4 litre car..

Yes, that's what i'm talking about.. some day i'll OWN one of that..
that's my mum and dad by the way.. haha..

Me and my "thin" brother. lol.

I was really hungry and Australia is such a cold country, it makes me HUNGRY!

My brother's work place! (His secret ingredient for dieting)

The brothers..

Vs.

Who shall prevail?

We shall see..

Will he create history again?

May 17th 2005, Arsenal vs. Barcelona.

Watch it! Feel it! The legend will repeat himself...

The Legend.

In slow motion..

They tried..

He scores!

He celebrates!!

i promise..

this feeling in me, i can never let go,
you say you want to talk to me so much,
then talk to like you've never talk before,
maybe i made a mistake in some ways,
but all i was trying to do was to express myself,
i'm sorry, i may have misunderstood you,
you're keeping so much in yourself,
i would never understand if you dont tell,
do you want me or do you want him,
that's all i wanna know, and i want you to know so badly,
that i've never even thought of going for another not even her,
for all i want is you, i want you so bad that no one would ever understand,
i want to know you, want to understand you,
but you're being so quiet, so secretive,
and that'll never help, don't ignore me,
for i'll be afraid that you'll never come back again,
i made a few mistakes back then but i promise this time i'll never again,
i promise...

One Wish..

i had one wish, a wish that would change my life,
a wish that i dreamt about all day long,
i lost all my other hopes just for it,
my lust for it was unspeakable,
my body shivers whenever i think about it,
a chill runs down my spine each time i talk about it,
this feeling, this cold feeling, it was unbearable,
i don't know why, i could never explain why i felt this way,
maybe it was because i was afraid, so afraid that my wish would not come true,
i did everything i could to hold it,
and i did everything i could to fulfill it,
and that one wish, was you...

The past...

Monday, March 20, 2006

my story..

i'm all lost, lost with words,
i don't know what i've done wrong,
but it seems that it has all gone wrong,
your words once, meant everything to me,
but they were all lies, i'm disappointed,
trust was the word i was seeking for,
but i couldn't find it in the end,
and the truth was what i needed all along,
but i guess i was just hoping to hear it,
well that was my story,
but i guess it was only a dream after all,
and now i know, i've learned and i've grown,
i'll never step back there again, and this time,
i'll take a step back and move on, i might regret,
but oh well, if it is meant to be, it'll happen,
so listen now, take care,
and i hope everything goes well for you,
that's all for now, for my story ends here...
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Saturday, March 18, 2006

i'm so lost..

i'm so lost, in the dark room sitting on the chair,
with a bright huge screen shining at me,
at that moment i had a choice to make,
the biggest question of my life, but i couldnt,
that was my biggest mistake, i really should have,
i was looking at you most of the time, hoping that you would turn to me,
and indeed you did, but i couldnt spill it out, i was afraid,
afraid to lose you, afraid that you wouldnt want me,
i'm so lost, that question i should have asked long ago,
i'm a coward and i'm sorry, but now i know i shouldnt have been,
that question would change my everything, so it kept me thinking,
but after all my conscience was wrong,
and it was wrong from the beginning,
and today, i lied, just to have someone to talk to, so selfish of me,
i'm a fool, there's no need to seek for anyone else but you,
i hate myself for doing so, hate myself for being so,
i'm so lost, and i hope someday you'll turn back to me,
and this time i promise i'll be a man,
not only a man but the best man of all,
one that would never let you down,
one that would stay by you all along,
and one that would cherish you for who you are,
and this time, i promise i would not be afraid no more,
for without you,
i'm so lost....
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Thursday, March 16, 2006

16th march..
a date to be remembered...

Dreams..

many wishes were made, not one came true,
i thought this time i had it all,
but it was just my imagination after all,
i've changed many things in life just to suit your call,
i've waited by your side just so that you wouldn't fall,
i was a fool for not being able to tell that this would happen,
my friends told me that it's a waste of time, but i denied them,
for i believed that this time it was real,
it was the love of my life, but i guess i was wrong,
i waited and had to turn back to myself when i was down,
it was hard times, but i still manage to crawl back up each time,
something kept me thinking, that i would be happy this time,
like always, it was just a dream..
"i'm not at whole without you, and i love you forever..."
people say those were mere pick up lines, well i disagree,
people say it is love, yes it is, and the fact is that i'm not the same person without you,
i dont say things that are half true, i dont....
every guy isn't similar, they are all different, dont compare,
for i'm not those who doesn't care, i'm me..
and i mean it when i say it, and i do love you with all my hearts..
love is all about being true, if it's not forever.. it's not love..
i always thought you knew me and understand who and how i am,
but then again i'm wrong, those we mere mirage in my mind,
i love you with all my hearts,
and never want us to be apart,
but well, i guess it was just another dream..
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Monday, February 27, 2006

Heart and soul...

i gave you my heart and soul,
without you, i'm not at whole,
everytime i think of you, my heart turns cold,
believe me this feeling, i will always hold,

i lie awake in bed every night,
dreaming that i could hold you so tight,
hoping that i could have you by my side,
and wishing that i could tell you how i feel inside,

i'll never regret the things i've done for you,
for many of it put a great smile on you,
the many efforts i've been through,
was worth doing for you,
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Sunday, February 26, 2006

Love isn't everything...

I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind..

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I'm all messed up.. dont know what to do.. dont know what to say.. i've tried but failed..
a quote "I have not failed. I've just found another way that won't work. "
that's the selfish way of putting it.. loving a person isnt everything finding the perfect person is everything.. oh well i dont have much to say because i myself is in a whole lots of shits.. and i cant do anything.. oh well.. that's life..
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Saturday, February 25, 2006

Tears...

Passed experienced has told me that it's not worth crying over a person.. unless if that person really cares and treats you better than ever.. Many things happened today.. and i dont know how to describe how i feel but all i can say is that i'm lost.. i kept going and going but end up on the same road.. Why?! am i being dumb for taking that path or is it just the way things will always be.. i dont know.. Things come and go but this i cant.. i cant let go.. it's too tough.. letting it go would only bring things to a tougher stage..

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I can't....

i can't say i hate you,
for i love you too much,
i can't say leave him,
for it's your choice,
i can't you have to be mine,
for it's not my decision,
i can't say i'll forget about you,
for your sweet looks i'll never forget,
but i can say one thing,
i'm all yours...
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Thursday, February 23, 2006

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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Life.....

"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us."

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My Sincerity..

I thought love was only a mirage in my mind,
it's and illusion, it's fake an impossible to find,
but the day i met you, I began to see,
that true love exist in me,

and love is what I feel for you,
I've put you first in my life,
I would risk it all for you,
even if it takes my life,

I'll build a wall around my heart,
that would only break apart for you,
and with all my heart so true,
my love will always be with you,

can't change the way I feel,
a lust for your love,
is so much to deal,
and too much to prove,

my sincerity for you will never end,
my life would be in the end,
if we are ever apart,
so please never ever break my heart,

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

i wish you knew...

i wish you knew how i feel inside,
this feeling i have i'm forced to hide,
if only i had you by my side,
for i love you deep down inside,
i've locked you in my heart so tight,
that i'll never put you aside,
day and night i've cried,
just to want you in my sight,
i lay in bed, eyes wide late at night,
hoping that i could have you by my side,
feelings i have, i could only write,
for i can never have the might,
to tell you how i feel inside,

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lame poem..

hanken is the word you want to know,
he is the greatest that anybody can know,
that's the furthers about him that you wish to know,
from there friendship will grow,
time like river flows,
so till the day comes you'll never know,
as for how han ken is the greatest drow,
he lives life with the greatest blow,
he treasures everything you know,
and last but not least, han ken is definitely the man you wish to know,

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

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Monday, February 13, 2006

Valentine?

I got this story from somewhere it's really good..

A girl asked a boy if she was pretty.
He said no.
She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever.
He said no.
She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away.
He again said no.
She had heard too much.
She needed to leave.
As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay, he said,
"You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with
you forever. I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."

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I dont have much to talk about today.. i went 2 places today to get something! haha..
other than that.. it was a really boring day..

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Wednesday, February 02, 2005

My Indulgence

I've always tried but never can I comprehend,
this sadness of mine which is waiting to be mend,
it is only you, who can mend it,
and not someone new,

the wounds I have, I could always bear,
but the pain with you, I never dare,
I only hope you were always there,
to tell me how much you really care,

if only you understand how I feel,
it's so pain, and it would never heal,
you might think, how can this be real,
but I'm telling you, it's for real,

each time time I think of you,
my heart skips a beat,
and everytime I dream of you,
I want it to repeat,

I really want you to know that,
if it's not for you, I could never see,
the trueself which is hidden within me,
and the love and life you have brought to me,

I've always loved you with all my heart,
and would never want us to be apart,
if we would to ever be apart,
it would be the deepest wound in my heart.